Someone told me Sundays
If I got them right
I would have sunshine
All of my days
But things don’t go as planned
Days feel as if the light is banned
Did the sunshine choose another place?
Or did I get things wrong on Sundays?
Someone told me goodness
Is the secret to greatness
And greatness is the best thing
Life can give
But I don’t feel so great
Carrying this crazy weight
Maybe life is more about being free?
Maybe greatness isn’t for me?
Where?
O Where
Do I run to?
Whom?
Whom
Can I trust?
To care for those in darkness
To care for those who are not great
To comfort those defaulted
To love the rejected
Like me
Someone told me try more
You really didn’t try
You got things all wrong
And you know why
Yes, I know they’re right
I chose the dark, not the light
Maybe it had to be
For me to see I can’t save me
Where?
O Where
Do I run to?
Whom?
Whom
Can I trust?
To care for those in darkness
To care for those who are not great
To comfort those defaulted
To love the rejected
Like me
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28
Hello there, David. I don’t have all the answers you are seeking for and sorry for my unsolicited advice. This is just me. My 2cents worth. I do believe you can be in just the perfect spot where you can embrace and grow in the fullness of His love and grace. Goodness is brokenness that experiences the goodness of God and declares the goodness of God. Cut the guilt trip. That is not from the Lord’s. I always go back to Psalm 51 when I feel lost and don’t measure up to the goodness expected of me. Good works are never the standard. King David’s shining moment in the history of Israel was strangely his lowest point when he simply got real before God and in brokenness uttered a public prayer of contrition. That says a lot about God and what He wants from us. I pray that you just be who you are before God. He loves you as you are Dave, ugly blots and all. Seek Him with who your whole heart, with who you really are not with what you think you know. He will gladly bring about the change He wants and will make all things beautiful and new.
“Going through the motions doesn’t please you, a flawless performance is nothing to you. I learned God-worship when my pride was shattered. Heart-shattered lives ready for love don’t for a moment escape God’s notice.” (Psalm 51:16, 17 MSG)
“Surely GOODNESS AND LOVINGKINDNESS will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.” (Psalm 23:6)
— Dorothy